A very heavy workday has ended and now I have a few minutes before I go into the evening routine. Usually this time would be reserved for playing World of Warcraft but thankfully I think that addiction is starting to wane.
Or, it could be that I’ve created a nice little space for myself in front of the window, assembled an Ikea desk and put a laptop on it. So even though I’ve had no wine and do not feel especially compelled to write I’ve sat down at my desk and begun this aimless post.
Since I’ve put “internet” in the title I should probably write a bit about that. I wonder how many people feel a bit overloaded by all the media we are consuming on a daily basis. I find myself checking the news on my iphone about 20 times a day and finding the same stories from different news sites. It’s not that I even enjoy it anymore, it has become a habit, almost an addiction. So, I open up Facebook and the problem is I’ve added all these news sites to my FB feed and I see the same stories yet again!
I do enjoy keeping up with my 500+ friends and seeing their photos but even then, I’m getting overloaded with media. It’s not the photos so much but the constant random complaints, quotes, meltdowns, advice, sales pitches, invites to places where I don’t live anymore and yes, news stories YET AGAIN!!
I suspect that others may feel this way too. It seems that in the beginning of FB we had a lot of fun reconnecting with old faces from the past and it was a party. Now, more than half of my FB friends no longer post and it’s only the hardcore posters that are either sharing some random advice or posting something off the wall like “I hate men who don’t want anything to do with their children!”
When people post things like this I want to be a voyeur and know what happened that brought out this random proclamation. But, no, I’m never satisfied even if I do check the comments over and over again.
So, I close Facebook and like one who engages in pleasure too much, it simply is not as much fun as it once was.
So what do I do? Well, I look for more entertainment sources which probably means back to the news again. I realize I’m going in a vicious circle, turn off my Iphone and stare at the wall.
However, my brain is telling me I should be reading or be entertained in some way. So I turn the electronics back on again. I’m addicted and I cannot stop. I don’t want to read the news anymore, I don’t care what states Romney won, hell, I don’t even want to go kill the Horde in WOW either! I think this is what is called “hitting rock bottom” in other addictions.
Further, I feel as though I’m behind the curve on technology. There are too many new websites, too many causes, too many things the media wants us to pay attention to. I feel like a whore, pimped out over and over again so the media and technology can ravage my brain. Even though I think I have had enough, I pimp myself out again to digest even more of the noise.
And what is my solution to this? Well, to engage in more technology which is exactly what I’m doing. On one hand I feel worn out but on the other I feel as though I haven’t had enough and can conquer technology again!!
So, I bought a server and am waiting for it to arrive. This site is hosted by GoDaddy and they felt the need to charge $160 for the next two years which is insane!!!! Therefore, I thought I would give hosting my own website a try with my very own server. I’m a bit nervous because I haven’t done it before and it is technically not allowed under my ISP’s contract but the forums tell me if I keep the bandwith low they will never notice. I also realized that my personal e-mails are also hosted by Godaddy and I’m going to have to figure out how to run an e-mail program on my new server. I’m a bit nervous but also excited because I sure as shit am not giving Godaddy $160.
I’ve also become quite a sloth with this blog. I set it up fairly quickly but have thought I could break my news and WOW addiction my devoting my energies to something more useful, namely, this blog. It does well enough in terms of views for very little effort but to become a decent sized blog I’ll have to put in effort. I think that with this new view of my back patio, I’ll have enough motivation to give it a shot.
But then again, I wonder about the readers, namely you people. The opinions I write here mostly resonate only with other international people and those that do have an open mind, or what some would call “free-thinkers.” Unfortunately, I don’t think there are enough out there, especially here in the USA where we are portrayed as either Liberals or Conservatives. Perhaps there are more than I realize but probably not enough to become a really big blog.
Maybe I’m just overthinking it and there are people out there that are interested in other cultures, languages, history and politics that do not fall into the tunnel vision of both the Right and the Left.
I don’t know, I’ll give it a shot to make a better blog and get more involved with this vast space called the internet.
Or maybe it is just one last hurrah before I OD on the net and go become a hermit in the woods. Sure, I might be tempted to take my Iphone but I can be fairly certain that AT&T won’t provide coverage there.
Here is where I will end this post. I’ll go walk into the living room and try to resist the temptation to pick up my Ipad.